Last Semester in Moscow

So, I am student here at the lovely University of Idaho, but it is scary to say that it is my last semester here. In a few days I will hopefully find out where I will be placed for student teaching. I can't believe that I am already here, it just seems like I was just a freshman and I had so much time to enjoy the college experience. I have enjoyed college immensely and have met some amazing friends, who I hope to keep for years to come. I have grown close to them and feel that I can tell them anything... But now I have this situation where I am stuck, I am not going to get into specifics, but it is about boys. Right of course it is, I am a college girl and I am leaving here shortly. For years I have dreamed that I will find the love of my life in college and I would live happily ever after, but it is not like that, at least not for me. I have had boyfriends here and there, but none were ever serious, and it is a disappointment to my dreams and my time is up. But now, I have two guys who claim they are interested in me. One I have a strong and confusing past with, and the other lives no where near me but is not like any other guy I have met. I feel so lost and confused and I am starting to stress out, because I feel that I need to have everything figured out before I leave. Which I know is ridiculous when I think about it, but when I don't I freak out and it has become very apparent to me. Right now I think what I really need to do is focus on me..."what will make you happy?" They both ask me, but honestly I have no idea what that is...so hopefully through here I can express how I feel and what I think on issues that are popping up in my mind and stressing me out, as I take this next big step towards my career and my future.